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In memory of: Tay Seck Wang aka Ah Yuan

Ah Yuan was a very nice person. Friendly, handsome, caring, cheerful and active 22 years old guy. He always seem trouble-free. His bright smile and laughters always brighten up the atmostphere. I still remember his smile and laughters even though he chose to leave us.

I was shocked when I recieved this news on 1st Dec 2008 night. I couldn't bring myself to believe this. He was such a cheerful guy. When he told us about Intrinsic (his interior design company), He even told me and my bf (jokingly) to look for him if we are getting married so he can design our house for us. This is now impossible anymore.

I missed our bowling/movie sessions. Now, we are 1 kaki down. Ah Yuan, you shouldn't have keep things to yourself and try to act strong. Why don't you tell us what is bothering you?! Roy? Charlton? Kok? William? Norman? Lum? (too many) What are they to you?? What are we to you?? Why you chose such a path. We really miss you. Why do you leave us behind. Did you saw how hurt your parents and granny were? Do you saw how sad we were too? Why do you bear to leave us. I don't understand. Nor, did you leave any notes. You left us in mystery.

I went to the undertaker place this afternoon to see you for the very last time. When I saw the men carry you out and put you inside the coffin, it was then I came to realise that you are really gone. You are lying down there, inside the coffin. Not going to have another bowling or movie session with us anymore, no more. At Guan Ming Shan, when your coffin slowly move into the funace, I told myself this is really the end. No more Ah Yuan, he is going into the funance. I can only softly shout "qi sheng" when you are going in. My throat was stuck with all the grievances. Now the ever-cheerful Ah Yuan in our heart, our memories.

Ah Yuan, hao hao shang lu. May you find the peace and ease that you always wish to have.